Zoe Girl
1-24-15, 11:20pm
oh dear, i came back from retreat, jumped back into work and by friday was exhausted in all ways. i either said something stupid or something brilliant (more likely stupid) to my boss on friday. i am trying to decide how to go forward. she can be supportive but also have a tone that is on the edge of rude as well. i was rude/blunt for me but i am not sure if it was something to apologize for or to realize is an effective way to work with her.
the 2 things i said were about my site finances (parent bills) and about our goal systems (we have 4 this year). i wrote a long thing and then deleted it, but it helped me work this through. i don't feel too bad about the finance comment i made, she changed her stance over the last month. in fact i have been battling this every month. As a result the finance person created a report to show how much money i am 'losing' every month on scholarships, so i am definitely under the microscope on this, but i am not withdrawing my 3 homeless families. i told her next year to change my site so i don't have to do this anymore.
on the goal system i realize as part of my crabby comments i am getting to do fewer goals overall but still need to improve the detail. So i did get something out of it and possibly it was effective. i felt the tone she used with me in bringing up the issue really set the overall tone of the conversation.
mostly i just came back from retreat, i got in late and my daughter moved back in that night at 1 am to deal with an alcohol problem, i worked every day in the early morning program at 6:30 am making 10-12 hour days, and then i had a very high standard for myself. if i can do this retreat then i magically can have loving conversations that transform the workplace also! the advice from retreat is to be gentle with ourselves, pace our work a little slowly coming back, and take time for our practice. Not to plan on solving all the communication issues in the workplace with our glowing enlightenment. heck it is saturday night and i still need my gentle, slow paced, adjustment.
the 2 things i said were about my site finances (parent bills) and about our goal systems (we have 4 this year). i wrote a long thing and then deleted it, but it helped me work this through. i don't feel too bad about the finance comment i made, she changed her stance over the last month. in fact i have been battling this every month. As a result the finance person created a report to show how much money i am 'losing' every month on scholarships, so i am definitely under the microscope on this, but i am not withdrawing my 3 homeless families. i told her next year to change my site so i don't have to do this anymore.
on the goal system i realize as part of my crabby comments i am getting to do fewer goals overall but still need to improve the detail. So i did get something out of it and possibly it was effective. i felt the tone she used with me in bringing up the issue really set the overall tone of the conversation.
mostly i just came back from retreat, i got in late and my daughter moved back in that night at 1 am to deal with an alcohol problem, i worked every day in the early morning program at 6:30 am making 10-12 hour days, and then i had a very high standard for myself. if i can do this retreat then i magically can have loving conversations that transform the workplace also! the advice from retreat is to be gentle with ourselves, pace our work a little slowly coming back, and take time for our practice. Not to plan on solving all the communication issues in the workplace with our glowing enlightenment. heck it is saturday night and i still need my gentle, slow paced, adjustment.