talula
5-18-11, 9:04pm
I just started a new job, and I'm a little worried because I feel like it's not the right fit. It's part-time, and I'm really nervous I made the wrong choice. To top it off, I just got an email from another organization I was really interested in that had a part-time position available. I thought it would be perfect (if I were offered the position), because I could work at both of these jobs - the convenient, "easy" one, and the one that allows me to follow my passions, so to speak. I've been looking for a while and haven't found anything that really fit me or what I needed.
As I ended my first day today, I thought, well, New Job's not perfect, and maybe I don't really like it, but if I get this other job, too, all will be well in my world. The thing with New Job is that it is really close, the hours are great, and the pay is really good for part-time. But it is a somewhat highly visible job, and I, being a private person, feel a bit exposed. The greater issue, though, is that it has nothing to do with my education, probably doesn't even require a degree, and is in fact in a line of work that I said I would never, no not ever, do again. Those words are indeed choking me now.
The thing with Potential Job is that it would utilize my education nicely, and it is with a great organization that I really admire, BUT it is really far away - an hour and a half commute, one way. However, they initially stated that hours could be split between home and the office, so I thought I could make it work.
Anyway, they sent me another email this afternoon. They said they changed the position to a full-time job, and am I still interested? I'm so incredibly disappointed about this. I was already feeling anxious about New Job, but after reading that email and the new job description, I feel positively awful. It really would have been perfect. Of course there is no guarantee that I would've been hired, but it would have been an amazing opportunity for me, personally and professionally.
New Job kind of just fell into my lap, and I thought I should take it, due to the aforementioned good factors and the fact that not much else is available here. I was actually looking for something full-time, but like I said, this other opportunity came up in conjunction, so I thought, well... maybe I could do both. So I took New Job, and now I think I'm regretting it. If Potential Job had been full time from the beginning I would never have taken New Job.
I don't feel like I can quit and pursue Potential Job, because it would go against my personal values, and also, for other reasons, it would reflect very poorly on me.
Sorry that this is extremely vague, but I can't go into specifics. I guess I am just venting. I'm sort of consoling myself with the fact that I would have despised that commute. (But I probably would have moved!)
As I ended my first day today, I thought, well, New Job's not perfect, and maybe I don't really like it, but if I get this other job, too, all will be well in my world. The thing with New Job is that it is really close, the hours are great, and the pay is really good for part-time. But it is a somewhat highly visible job, and I, being a private person, feel a bit exposed. The greater issue, though, is that it has nothing to do with my education, probably doesn't even require a degree, and is in fact in a line of work that I said I would never, no not ever, do again. Those words are indeed choking me now.
The thing with Potential Job is that it would utilize my education nicely, and it is with a great organization that I really admire, BUT it is really far away - an hour and a half commute, one way. However, they initially stated that hours could be split between home and the office, so I thought I could make it work.
Anyway, they sent me another email this afternoon. They said they changed the position to a full-time job, and am I still interested? I'm so incredibly disappointed about this. I was already feeling anxious about New Job, but after reading that email and the new job description, I feel positively awful. It really would have been perfect. Of course there is no guarantee that I would've been hired, but it would have been an amazing opportunity for me, personally and professionally.
New Job kind of just fell into my lap, and I thought I should take it, due to the aforementioned good factors and the fact that not much else is available here. I was actually looking for something full-time, but like I said, this other opportunity came up in conjunction, so I thought, well... maybe I could do both. So I took New Job, and now I think I'm regretting it. If Potential Job had been full time from the beginning I would never have taken New Job.
I don't feel like I can quit and pursue Potential Job, because it would go against my personal values, and also, for other reasons, it would reflect very poorly on me.
Sorry that this is extremely vague, but I can't go into specifics. I guess I am just venting. I'm sort of consoling myself with the fact that I would have despised that commute. (But I probably would have moved!)